Friday, 18 July 2014

The End

On Sunday morning I sat on the living room couch and wept.  Suddenly it had all become very real to me - this was the end for my shadow, my friend of 15 years.  Molly walked over to me and asked me why I was crying, so I explained to her that I was sad because our cat was very sick.  Apparently Molly lives in the same place of logic as The Big Bang Theory's Sheldon Cooper, "When people are upset, the cultural convention is to bring them hot beverages."  Molly brought me over two cups of imaginary tea to make me feel better.  Jack waited until I stopped crying and eventually curled up in my arms to cuddle, but only after I'd finished my "tea" so I wouldn't spill it.


baby and cat
Jack 1 month old and Pan 

On Monday morning I called our vet and confirmed everything that I already knew in my heart.  This would be the beginning of the last week or two of Pan's life.  We would need to find him some secure place to allow him to rest, spoil him rotten and eventually when the fluid in his lungs becomes too much, take him into the vet to end his life.  So we secured his space, cuddle him often and give him a bottomless plate of tuna every day.  Now we wait.

We ask ourselves the question of what we tell Molly and Jack when he finally goes.  My vet told us about story books we can read to help them understand what's going on.  I did some research online and we may pick one up when the time comes.  I know that they probably won't remember him; the way they scolded him when he jumps up on the table, because if they aren't allowed to sit on the table then neither should he, the way the patiently sat there as they tried to "gently" brush his fur or the way Molly would pile stuffed toys and blankets around him because he was sleeping.

Pan was my longest standing roommate, guard cat, judge of character, lap cat and trusty friend.  I'm going to miss him so much.  There is going to be a lot of imaginary tea in our house this week.

1 comment:

  1. Sorry to hear about Pan. To me, losing a pet is like losing a dear friend. My husband and I recently went through a similar situation with a few months back with our 3 year old daughter when our dog passed. We found this video helpful and I hope it can help you.
    http://www.kidsinthehouse.com/all-parents/family-life/family-pets/death-pet

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